Do you have a secret weapon? I’m not talking about a gun, knife, or light saber. Just something that no one really knows about you but when you use it people take notice. It can be either good or bad….
I have a secret weapon. I call it my B-word card. I have it hidden in my back pocket and in rare occasions of extreme frustration and anger I whip out the card and trump everyone else. Okay, it isn’t really a card but an attitude. It is hard, unrelenting, stubborn, and occasionally mean. It is never cruel or vulgar. I absolutely refuse to fight dirty. I used to really enjoy having this secret weapon however now I see it more as something I need to work on…
I am writing this because I in the last couple days I used my B-word card. There are three things that make me want to use it and they are the following; car salesman, HOA, and medical offices… These people cause me to dig my heels in hard and not move. They literally have no idea what they are up against because I don’t look like a person to have an attitude. This is the attitude that has banned me from the Ford dealership in Las Vegas (it also got my friend a lower car payment) and had the community manager for my HOA go running for the hills. Now I am waging war against the medical profession for a bill that is unbelievable.
It is this war that has caused me to take a step back and really re-evaluate my attitude. This is NOT a Christ like attitude. Where was my grace? Where was my patience? Where was my forgiveness? There wasn’t any. I was ready to kick these people into next week… and I kinda did. I stood my ground and called out all of their bluffs but I know there was a better way to handle the situation. Should I have exercised patience -yup. Could I have shown grace and kindness when stuck in a hard spot – undoubtedly.
Now that I have realized my bad behavior I can change it…… And maybe if I had taken the opportunity to take a step back in the situation to breath they wouldn’t be sending me death threats and warning all the doctors within the Phoenix-Metro area….